My Reply

First I am going to say I am not making excuses for all these things but it is the reasons I am in this horrific bind. About a two months ago my wallet was stolen it costs $25 bucks to get a freakin driver license. That is one thing holding me back from a job not having that and most companies need a valid driver license.
When my husband and I married he is one religion I am another. We have visited his family’s church but people and I there are not exactly on the same page on some things. Their daycare costs a crap load and besides they have like two people watching twenty kids. There is no order there at all. I can look into the house cleaning I just don’t know because my husband works all kinds of hours I would have to see what the families would think.
We just have the bare needs electric home, phone, water, rent.
No they are not a union.
It probably is against the law but we can’t afford for my husband to be fired. He has gotten to the point of scared to say anything just to be sure to not be fired.
I do thank you very much for the comments I am still seeing about jobs I just wish all these blogs would work out I have made two others but they aren't very good.

I Am So MAD!

This is one of my worest days. I woke up in a good mood and everything. I have been cleaning doing dishes, scruben floors, vacumning my weekly cleaning. My husband calls me and tells me that his boss is DEMANDING him to work six to seven days a week. He is a Store Manager and the hours on the store are over. Since his hours doesn't count against them they want him working more. But get this he is salary and will not get paid overtime for all this work. Not only that but when they hired him they agreed to pay him a certain amount he is getting paid thousands less then what he was told. It has been three months and they said they would fix it and we aren't doing so good. I am sick of begging family I am sick of begging friends. I am tired of selling our things just to get by. I am fed up with being nothing for having my family and nothing else. Some people just doesn't get how hard it is. I am going to see what I can do about getting a job its just I don't have anyone to watch my kids I don't have the money to pay them to go to a daycare. His hours change from week to week so It is hard for me to find a job that will work around that. I just . . . . . . get so frustrated at stupid ass people for not doing their damn job. My husband has done great with what he has done with his job but apparently they don't want to pay him what he deserves. We have tried to find him another job but were I live there is not a lot of oppertunity. Previous I have said that I have been told to move to a closer city but you can't move somewhere when you don't have the money to even pay your freakin bills. I am just glad my kids are so young to not really understand . . . . . . . that we are . . . . . . poor. Rich in love and family and friends but with money lol. Lets just say when you see a twenty dollar bill on the road what do you think of it. New CD maybe a movie, Dinner, for us it is at least three days of food sometimes more if you get Ramen noodles and Bread and Sandwich meat. I am not saying all this for you to feel sorry for me but for you to look around you and think "Hey I am doing pretty good compared to her". Just appreciate what you got. And maybe I can write you all soon and let you know that my husband kicked his bosses ass and got a freakin raise , or he found another job that needed him. Because apparently these people don't need him if they treat him like crap.

Job Hunting

I love to complain so I will add job hunting to my list of complants. I hate looking for a job you seem to always be looking for something better then what you have and when you find it you have to know everything. And I mean about yourself.
I went to whole bunch of different schools growing up and they want you to name them and what their address was. I am lucky to name them in the order I went to them.
All the jobs you have worked at their addresses and what were your bosses names and phone numbers. Some people go to a job and are thinking this is the job I will have till I retire. But the shit hits the fan in a few years and you get screwed. But you know that you have specific qualities that you are good at. But you seem to find all the jobs don't you aren't good at. For instence I am no were near being a trucker, but there are adds everywhere for them. Or military I don't wanna go to the military just to have some expeirence. Or Mechanic, dentist receptionist, insurance salesman, or a letter stuffer but who in the hell would want to do that. It is so hard to find a good job where I live and I am told that we would have a better chance in a bigger city. But I like where I live it isn't my fault the city sucks for not having any freakin jobs that fit what I am good at. So that is why I made this blog to try and get a few extra bucks. See I can't really go and get a job I don't have any family close to watch my kids. And I don't trust to send them to a daycare you hear to much crazy stuff. So I am waiting for them to start school so I can get a job. I thought by making this site I would make some money but boy was I wrong. I am lucky to get a penny a day. But the reason I keep doing it is because it is fun. I enjoy venting on this and letting people know HEY I FEEL LIKE SHIT or THERE ARE SO MANY STUPID PEOPLE. I just makes me feel better. So as for this whole job thing I don't know I think it will always be this way no matter where you live and right know I maybe poor but I am happy being here where I live. Maybe not my house but at least this town. I have great friends here thats what makes me want to stay here I never had a lot of friends but that is a whole nother can of worms that I will gladly complain about later. Thank You For Reading and Thank You Lee For The Comments it makes this worth while.

What Do You Want Me To Do About It?

Ok I get a lot of people that come up to me in a parking lot and beg for money. I drive a P O S car. Ok well it has lasted but it is coming to the end of the road. But anyway there are these people that give me this insane story about they ran out of gas or their mothers have cancer in Mississippi and they need money to get there. I Do Not Look Like I Have Money. I don't dress nice I only wear my wedding ring, so no diamonds or anything. I look poor if you gonna beg somebody beg the cadillac or the escalade people. Cause you are lucky to hit me on a good day. I know some people have it hard, hell I am one of those people but I will not ask strangers for money. I will sell somthing or talk to my family. Whom are fantastic when I need help. It's just I feel sorry for some people but damn I get this at least once a month or once every two months. I guess I will roll on up in some dirt and maybe they will pass me. I have given money to people when I had it. One time I was at the gas station and I gave a guy five bucks and I saw him put five dollars of gas in his car. There was a time I helped an older woman at the cash register cause she was a few bucks short and she didn't have enough to pay for the rest of her groceries. So situations like that if I can help for real people then I will try. I guess God is letting me go through it now to prepare me for my kids when they get older. I have learned a lot of excuses: no, leave me alone, hell no, see I gotta go back home cause I forgot my money, your S O L, aaww you caught me on a bad day wait here till friday and I maybe able to help ya.

Oh and yes to lee that does make me feel better that other people feel screwed up, *smiles* thank you.

Not Comfortable in My Own Skin

You know there are times when I can't stand myself. I say the wrong thing I'll piss off the wrong people. Getting older I am getting tired of being around people, some more then others. But at times I just wanna stay home and not see anyone. My husband works I am home with the kids I get in moods were I wanna go out or I just wanna hide from the whole world. I can understand why some woman are so damn moody. I am about to drive myself nuts.

I want to lose weight I get reminded by my mother how chunky I am. I want to be able to smile at myself and be happy when I myself in a mirror. Cause there are days I won't even look at a mirror cause I am afraid of the reflection. There are gonna be some people that may see this that know me and may be surprised but on here I can say how I feel and actually feel better about me.

In my life I have gone through a lot of things good and a lot of bad. I think I have surprisingly turned out well compared to others I could have turned out as. I guess I shouldn't be so hard on myself. But I guess their right I am my own worst enemy. I would like to know who else feels as screwed up as me.

Stupid Air Condition

Ok I love the fact that we have air conditoners. I hate the fact that air conditioning repairmen are hard to find on weekends. And by monday they are booked for a week. I don't even want to think of mechanics. But my house has been so hot and you all have sufferd from this heat this year. My god I think the earth is trying to get a freakin tan. I do not have any trees around my house and my house pretty much roasts in the sun. My kids don't have a pool not even a little plastic one so I have this storage tub and filled it up with water and let them cool down in the living room. They are so happy right now. Hey at least they will get tired and go to bed early then I can take everything out of the fridge and crawl inside, my husband has dibbs on the freezer.

Collecting Things

Yeah Yeah Yeah I know that companies make money by driving us poor people crazy. You know I have a nice collection of severl things. I have one section that I love love love to collect and when I finally catch up they come out with the same character in a different pose. I Hate It! It drives me bonkers. But I think any collector will understand me when I say,"I gotta have it." If they stop now I would have the complete run. I never use to like collecting things. But getting married changed that I wanted to have something else in common with my husband. So I started collecting things from dolls to action figures. Now when we go to the store and see something we can drool together. And it is really nice. AAAAAAHHHH forget that now lets get back to my complaining. I Love Hate Collecting. It gives me something to look forward to and I can stand back and stare at what I have accomplished. So I hope all the companies are very happy for every penny I ever spent on their stuff.

Mice

I was watching a movie and all of a sudden a freakin mouse ran behind the entertainment center. I grabbed this dry erase board that is about four feet long and blocked off the other side so it wouldn’t run to my kids room. To make this chase a little shorter it went back into the wall. And now I have to clean the whole house cause mice just make me feel like my house is dirty. I know you don’t have to have a dirty house to have rodents but just the thought of a mouse in my house is just nasty. Especially since I have babies.

Now there are ways to get rid of these critters I am using one of everything this evening except the urine.

Traps
Sticky Traps
Poison
Bounce Dryer Sheets LOTS OF THEM
Ammonia
Month Balls
Onion
Peppermint Oil
Fox Urine
Cut of all food and water source

I understand most of them but Fox Urine. Not all mice know that a fox will hunt and eat them let alone be scared of pee.

Something that drives me crazy that fat skinny girls, is a muffin top. That’s right a muffin top where their pants are so tight it squeezes the fat out through the top and it looks nasty. And they wear the short tight shirts that just show it off that much more.

I saw this girl at the store and she may have lost a lot of weight and was feeling great about herself. She was wearing a hot pink tub top and at first I saw her from the back and she didn’t have fat hanging over it was skin. It was so bad you couldn’t see her belt on the sides. To make it worse I saw the front of her and her belly was the same. I felt kinda bad for her cause if she did lose a lot of weight then I am so happy for her. But she could have at least tucked in her skin. It just looks bad and usually women are so worked up over their appearance but this woman didn’t seem to be too worried by it.

I hate hate hate hate how some parents let their daughters wear whatever they want or they dress them that way. I’m not talking about teens but ages five to twelve. Wearing juicy on their butts and tiny shirts talking about other girls boyfriends. I don’t give a damn what is “IN” I refuse to let my daughter walk around like an advertisement for what is (NOT) available. It is damn well obvious why girls get treated the way they do, and to gripe and moan about it is stupid. Cause they bring it on themselves. I know they want attention but when they get to a point were it is uncomfortable for them they suddenly don’t understand what brought it on. I just think it is so wrong to let a child dress that way. I am about twenty five and I consider seventeen, eighteen, nineteen year olds as kids. I understand why older people would talk about kids like they are so stupid, it’s because they are, they don’t have a clue. Their worries are boyfriends, popularity, weight, and what everyone else thinks about them. And I feel so bad for all of them.

When I was young I cared what others thought about me but I didn’t change my looks for it. I was an outcast you couldn’t be anymore out then I was. At least the nerds got picked on I was invisible. I think it is sad to put a baby in a bikini WHAT THE HELL is she wearing a bikini for the other toddlers. I am not saying put your daughters in sweatshirts but damn cover them up a little you’re the freakin parents.